I’m linking up with Courtney for #ONEBIGTRUTH.
Courtney probably has no idea who I am, but she has taught me so much lately. I love her.
Courtney says, “If you have #ONEBIGTRUTH that God has taught you lately or over a lifetime – I’d love for you to share. It might take some courage and a little brain power to think it through. You can do it!” You can read more about it here.
How does one overcome the loss of a child?
I can tell you right now, if I didn’t have the faith I would see him again, I’m not sure I would have survived.
Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
It wasn’t that easy, and sometimes still isn’t, and my rejoicing was only that Cohen wasn’t in pain. It’s part of me and I’ve prayed I would have endurance to keep going as well as to witness from our story. I prayed to keep faith that I would see him again….
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
All three of our gifts, His children, have been perfect…to him and to us……
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.
He wanted Cohen in His kingdom sooner than later and I prayed for healing for Cohen. I had to grasp that he was not my baby, but a gift, and one I had to give back. I just wanted him not to be in pain.
But Jesus called them to him, saying, “Let the children come to me, and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of God.
We knew our family wasn’t complete. We kept faith, and though at times we were afraid for our future children, we prayed for peace and faith in our hearts.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid
Thank you God for two more beautiful babies. Thank you for each and every day with them.
Isaiah 61:1-3 & 61:7
The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
because the Lord has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord
for the display of his splendor.
Instead of your shame
you will receive a double portion,
and instead of disgrace
you will rejoice in your inheritance.
And so you will inherit a double portion in your land,
and everlasting joy will be yours.
Thank you, God, for a husband by my side who is an extraordinary father. Thank you for amazing friends and family. Thank you for a listening ear. Thank you for this journal to write and share my heart.