I haven’t really posted about this, but it’s been on my heart to do so.
If you’ve been reading for a while, you may have seen my posts about a fellow blog friend’s husband dying. I posted here the first time.
Julee and I had been reading each others blogs for several years and chatting on other social media platforms, such as Twitter. We were both experiencing fertility issues and both yearning to be parents.
She was someone I felt like I knew from her blog and we walked many of the same steps as we lived in the same area, at the same time, for a period of time. She is a genuine and sweet person.
Not only did I feel like I knew her, I felt like I knew her husband, Matt. I had been watching him on local news for years and seeing him in everyday life on Julee’s blog.
When I got the news that he had passed away, Brent and I had just parked at the fair and were getting ready to get out and unload Knox & Sloane. I hadn’t checked my email or been on Twitter or Facebook all morning and I had a random feeling to check my email.
I lost it. I basically went hysterical crying. I felt like I was going to be sick. I then got numb.
Julee had an amazing husband and a precious little girl and their lives were changed forever. Her heart was broken.
We were meeting grandparents at the fair so I hated to leave, but I walked around in a daze and shedding some tears. After a few hours passed, and we were home, I started trying to process it. What happened. Is Julee okay. Poor Preslee. Why is this hurting me so bad. How can I help. This is my worst nightmare. How will she go on.
It hit me like a ton of bricks and I was consumed.
In the days to follow, I would cry at the drop of a hat; I would think about the Turner’s and just lose it. I prayed and prayed they would find peace.
I realized how people felt when Cohen died. I actually don’t think it was until then that I did. Of course I had people email me and leave comments, but I never knew the depths until Julee’s husband died. I was feeling what so many other people had felt and it hurt. It hurt really bad. They felt this because they had been reading and got to ‘know’ our family just as I had the Turners.
Everytime I get a Tweet, email, Facebook message, comment about a sick child or person it hurts. I sometimes tell Brent, and while I can see in his eyes or tell by his sigh that it’s upsetting and sad to him, occasionally he will say, but Megan you can’t let this get to you everyday because sickness is everywhere and because you are apart of the internet world, you hear about it much more. While this is true, he knows being apart of a community on the internet when Cohen was sick really and truly helped us.
My heart physically hurts for those who are sick and their families. I’ve felt their pain, having experienced the same thing, and it’s the worst thing I can imagine dealing with. I know being a part of social media causes me to hear about sickness on a pretty consistent basis and although it makes my heart ache, I’m thankful to be able to pray for these children and families, and spread the word.
We’ve felt the power of prayer. Those prayers for peace; prayers for more children; prayers for healing.
We are forever grateful that you all surrounded us with your thoughts and your prayers…even when you hurt.
I’ll continue to pray for Julee and Preslee and I’m certain they’ve felt all of your prayers. It’s amazing how this community has come together to support them. Julee is so very strong.
I recently received these two prayer requests to share…
- I received a Facebook message this morning from one of my readers, Lindsey, sharing about her niece, Jamie FAITH Douglas. She is seven months old and she is sick. She doesn’t have a complete diagnosis yet, but they know her brain did not fully develop. Lindsey started a Facebook page for Jamie where there will be updates, fundraisers and pictures. They are currently selling t-shirts and bracelets. Jamie’s mom wrote –
- I also received news of another little girl, Taylor. She was born with Congenital Heart Defects, like Cohen, and just received some very unfortunate news that she developed a rare disease after having her Fontan surgery this past summer. Her Facebook page is HERE.