Time really does fly. Sometimes it feels like yesterday. Sometimes it feels like a lifetime ago.
I'm sitting in the same hotel, and what feels to be the exact room, as I was just a few hours before he was born and a few hours after he died. It's all pretty surreal.
This morning, I woke up to a talking baby. A few minutes later, another baby chimed in. I remember sitting in bed, here, two years ago.....thinking I left the hospital without my baby and wondering if I would ever have anymore. BT gave Knox & Sloane kisses when they woke up and I told them it was Cohen's birthday. I look forward to them understanding who Cohen was and is to us. I know he is such a part of them and I know he is looking down, and happy, with what he sees. I know he is healthy.
I'm content with knowing what I know and content with what I don't know.
I watch the slideshow today and can immediately feel what I felt on his birthday. He did better than I expected him to. It's weird to say that now, but it's true. I'm just thankful he had a birth day. I'm thankful for what he brought to our lives and our family and our hearts. It's hard knowing he was here and now he's not. It's comforting having faith that we will see him again.
We want to celebrate him because he was and always will be such a special little boy to us :)
Happy Birthday Cohen! Wish you were still here, healthy and whole.
ReplyDeletehappy birthday sweet boy. thinking of you today and always.
ReplyDeleteToday you and your family are in my prayers. God is soo good!
ReplyDeletewhat a special day to be holding your babies tight, Happy Birthday Cohen!
ReplyDeleteHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO A VERY SPECIAL LITTLE ANGEL <3
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to your special little angel! What a beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteHappy, Happy Birthday to your sweet angel.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to your sweet angel!!
ReplyDeleteHappy Happy Birthday Cohen! Thinking & praying for you today with a heavy heart!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen! We are all thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteBeautifully said! Happy Birthday sweet Cohen! Thinking of you and your family today.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen! Praise the Lord that today you are healed and whole!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday sweet Cohen!!
ReplyDeleteI adore this post.I thought about the Marshall crew first thing this morning.
ReplyDeleteI hope you enjoy C's bday!
Happy Birthday to your sweet baby boy. Sending good thoughts your way.
ReplyDeleteHappy 2nd Birthday Cohen
ReplyDeletethinking of you today
ReplyDeleteSuch a sweet post full of memories! Happy birthday Cohen! Thinking of you all today as you remember your sweet little boy in heaven! XOXO
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to your sweet little precious angel. Thinking of you and Brent today.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday sweet Cohen!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday pretty boy :) I woke up to an alarm on my phone that said Cohen's birthday. This day will forever remind me of you. I know you are so proud of your sweet family and how they are honoring your life, I know I am. :) xoxo.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday, Cohen!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI can't Believe I've been following your blog for over two years. Even though I'm one of those random people you will probably ever know, your family's strength and determination inspire me. Happy birthday sweet Cohen! I hope you're having one big ole party up in heaven.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen!!!! What a special little boy you are to not only your family, but hundreds of strangers around the world, like me! :)
ReplyDeleteLove and prayers to your family everyday, but especially today!
he was and still is a special baby boy, happy birthday cohen!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday Cohen! You've touched so many!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to your Angel in Heaven!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen...you are a loved little boy by so many people who never got to meet you! I know you are watching over your family everyday!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday sweet Cohen, sending hugs all the way to heaven and hugs to your family here on earth.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday, sweet Cohen. Prayers for you and your family today.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Sweet Angel Cohen. Prayers for you today Brent and Megan as you remember your sweet boy!!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen!! Sending prayers of strength an comfort your way today and always!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday, Cohen! It takes someone really special to touch as many people as you have.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen. Sending thoughts and prayers your way today.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen! Thinking of you and your family.
ReplyDeleteMegan- I hope this gives you some comfort. My older brother Steven died at 15 months and about a year before I was born. Though I never knew him I feel a bond to him and a deep love for him. I look at his pictures and think of him often. He is most definitely loves as much as my younger siblings who are alive though in a different way. I am 26 now and I think I will always think of him until I see him in heaven one day. I think Knox and Sloane will have the same feelings for Cohen. Thinking and praying for you and your family today.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to Cohen!
ReplyDeleteNow that I have a child of my own, I really cannot even imagine what you and Brent went through and still go through. You both seem so strong and I admire you for that. Thinking of you today and always.
Happy Birthday Cohen! Looking at those pictures still makes me tear up, I admire YOU for being so strong.
ReplyDeleteHi Megan, I've been following your blog for a while now and just wanted to stop by and wish your little angel a happy birthday. Thinking of you and your family today.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen!! You have so many people on earth that love you and will be so happy to be your friend one day. I am sure your Birthday today in Heaven is better than any birthday here on earth. Meg and Brent you are amazing people. K & S you are precious and have a beautiful BIG brother. Love Casey, Cason and Nora.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday, sweet Cohen!
ReplyDeletePrayers are with all of you today, and until you meet again. Happy Birthday, Cohen.
ReplyDelete-Charlee
thecoachswifecw.blogspot.com
Happy Birthday Cohen!! You will forever be loved by your family and friends!!
ReplyDeletePraying for you Megan and Brent!!!!
Odie
www.boggsblogs.com
Happy Birthday Cohen!! You will forever be loved by your family and friends!!
ReplyDeletePraying for you Megan and Brent!!!!
Odie
www.boggsblogs.com
Happy Birthday sweet Cohen. What a special boy he is. I'm so happy you were able to share this day with his twin siblings. Thinking of you today Megan!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday, Cohen!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to sweet Cohen <3
ReplyDeletehappiest of birthdays to one amazing little boy! sending you hugs today sweet girl.
ReplyDeleteMegan, I can't believe it has been two years. I feel like I've "known" you forever and have celebrated and mourned with you. My heart is with you today. Happy Birth Day to your sweet sweet firstborn.
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Happy Birthday, sweet Cohen. I know he's watching down on your family and blessing his little brother and sister, who allow him to live on through them each and everyday. I relate to what you said in the beginning of your post. Sometimes it feels like yesterday, sometimes it feels like an eternity. I gain strength from reading your story and am grateful that you share your heart with us. Know that you're inspiring hope and that Cohen is touching lives everyday. Praying for strength and peace today. <3
ReplyDeleteWhat an amazing and difficult day to share with Know & Sloane! How special you all are to have such a sweet angel baby! Happy Birthday Cohen! My thoughts and love are with you today!
ReplyDeletePraying for God's great peace to fill your hearts today and everyday until you see sweet Cohen again. Thank you for sharing his story and your beautiful faith.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen! What a wonderful big brother the twins have looking down on them! I know in heaven that they had a big birthday party today. I started reading your blog 1 week before he was born and have been reading since. We live a few miles north of children's- wish that I knew you in "real" life, you could have stayed with us!
ReplyDeleteThought about you guys all week. Cohen holds a special place in our hearts because he shares a birthday with our Aidan. His life was an inspiration! Happy Birthday Cohen!!!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen. You are a strong woman.
ReplyDeleteYou r such a strong woman! Happy Birthday Cohen!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen!! We all love you - hope you had a sweet birthday party in heaven - complete with cake and balloons and angels singing your name :)
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen! I loved watching the news story unfold on Channel 8 last night as well!
ReplyDeletehappy birthday cohen! what an awesome birthday party you must be having up there with Jesus!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday to your angel, Cohen. :)
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday sweet Cohen. What an incredible little boy you are! You've touched so many lives! Now you have two very blessed little siblings to have you as a big brother!
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday Cohen.
ReplyDeleteHope yesterday was gentle to you both.
I am a lurker here and always enjoy reading your words and seeing pictures of your sweet darling babies. I watched Cohen's video two years ago and watched it again today and I felt the same pain again as I felt it then. He was and IS so precious.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Cohen! Say Hi to my Daddy for me.
Linda
Texas
Happy Birthday to Cohen. Thinking of your sweet family! XO
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