Time really does fly. Sometimes it feels like yesterday. Sometimes it feels like a lifetime ago.
I'm sitting in the same hotel, and what feels to be the exact room, as I was just a few hours before he was born and a few hours after he died. It's all pretty surreal.
This morning, I woke up to a talking baby. A few minutes later, another baby chimed in. I remember sitting in bed, here, two years ago.....thinking I left the hospital without my baby and wondering if I would ever have anymore. BT gave Knox & Sloane kisses when they woke up and I told them it was Cohen's birthday. I look forward to them understanding who Cohen was and is to us. I know he is such a part of them and I know he is looking down, and happy, with what he sees. I know he is healthy.
I'm content with knowing what I know and content with what I don't know.
I watch the slideshow today and can immediately feel what I felt on his birthday. He did better than I expected him to. It's weird to say that now, but it's true. I'm just thankful he had a birth day. I'm thankful for what he brought to our lives and our family and our hearts. It's hard knowing he was here and now he's not. It's comforting having faith that we will see him again.
We want to celebrate him because he was and always will be such a special little boy to us :)