blogging, that is 🙂
It’s been on my mind a lot lately.
I started blogging five years ago. I really started doing it consistently, though, about four years ago. We had just moved and my parents and other friends & family wanted to see what we were up to. I also wanted to document it for us.
I should probably back up further. Since about seventh grade, I’ve been taking pictures…of everything. I have seventh grade through college in photo albums, chronologically. That was just something I had a passion for. I liked taking pictures of my friends & family, food, events…everything! Now? I LOVE to look back on those pictures. I love to remember those times. Sure, there are bits and pieces of those times I’m probably not too fond of, but that’s life. I also attempted to have a journal several times but I could never seen to stick with it. Then, email came along and I shared thousands of emails with close friends and that was my journal. I like to communicate.
Now? I love looking back. I love looking back to five years ago when I started this blog. You know what I also love? Reading back. Now, the pictures aren’t just in an album where I sit and try to remember what year it was or where the picture was taken. The pictures are in blog posts. They have dates, they have descriptions. They have what I was feeling. Once again, there are time periods in the last five years that I have not been fond of, but I cannot tell you how thankful I am to have blogged about them.
The thing is, our life would be the same, look the same and feel the same, whether I blogged it or not.
I look forward to looking back. I look forward to looking forward. I blog everyday because that’s the moment I’m in. I live in the moment and I happen to journal about it, too. We aren’t promised tomorrow so we have to embrace today.
I don’t have 6 memory cards from my camera sitting in our safe hoping they are safe if our house burns down. Okay, maybe I do, but I also have them on my blog. Yes, I’m still trying to find a place to store photo albums from the past 15 years.
My blog? In thirty years, when Brent and I are sitting around and our kids and grandkids are over, we can look through the hardback book. We can look at the pictures of Knox & Sloane being so very cute. We can remember recipes I posted, weddings we went to, outfits that use to be in style and of course, the things I so randomly talked about in midweek randoms. I look forward to that. I think it will be fun and if it were a private journal that I wasn’t looking forward to sharing, it would be a private blog.
The moments that I’m not fond of? Those can never be undone. Whether I blogged them or not. There are many moments, in the past five years, that have been terrible. They were part of my life and in this blog, I journal my life. I know it may seem like I blog every single thing, but I don’t. Of course there are things that are more private and things I simply just do not talk about. The great thing? That’s my choice.
I’m so glad to have a place to journal my thoughts, my pictures, my videos and whatever else I randomly think of.
I love having people join in conversation, leave comments, send emails and anything else along those lines, but I don’t need that. I just think it’s an awesome perk! I do love the interaction, I’m a communications major, but I certainly didn’t start blogging, or continue to do it, in order to gain affirmation, people please or anything along those lines. Of course, who doesn’t love positive feedback? It really is so kind of people to comment such sweet things! The comments people have left have been so uplifting and encouraging. I’ve gotten many crummy comments, but the nice once far outweigh those. I constantly have a goal to leave comments for others as much as I use, but I’m definitely a bit busier than I use to be, so I tend to be quite a lurker.
I will admit, I feel like I’ve become a bit shy lately when it comes to my posts. When I hear people read my blog or someone tells me they do, part of me takes a deep breath. My life is out there. I think I’ve kind of held back on some posts and I haven’t intended to, but sometimes I think about people reading before I write in my journal and I want to stop that. I want to just sit down and type what’s on my heart and mind in that moment, ya know?
Honestly, I’m surprised people read my blog. I think most of the time, I’m quite boring. I’m love my husband and kids and I’m really random. I enjoy fun stuff. That’s my life. I know God sent Cohen to us for many reasons and I know that he was thinking of many of you reading as well. I still get emails from readers letting me know how much Cohen and our situation has touched their life and that has been a huge part of this blog. I’m thankful people learned something from our situation and thankful God used us for that. I pray that continues. I pray you know the meaning of Easter and have Him in your life. His plan for us has been hasn’t been an easy one, but we are so grateful for it and everything it has entailed.
I’m so so grateful for what blogging has brought to my life. The friendships and blogs I have found along the way have been such a blessing. I’m glad you are reading and I hope to read about you as well 🙂