Cohen has been on my mind a lot lately, which I know is normal for this time of year, and really, anytime of year. Last year during Christmas it was still so fresh. We were healing and at the same time we were being blessed again. We made cookies for Santa from Cohen and we were pretty consumed with the fact that he wasn't here with us to celebrate Christmas with us.
On December 17th, last year, we did IUI. On Christmas Eve I started taking positive pregnancy tests. We didn't have confirmation that we were pregnant or if it was just the trigger shot giving me positive tests, but I hoped and prayed that 2011 would bring Cohen's little brother or sister. Well, He (and Cohen) had bigger things in store as we welcomed Cohen's brother and sister in 2011.
Every Christmas we will include Cohen in some of our traditions. He will always be apart of our family. Every Christmas I will think about how six months after Cohen went to Heaven, we had broken and hopeful hearts at Christmas. With all things said, it might have been exactly six months to the day that we conceived his brother and sister. Cohen wasn't here with us for his first Christmas and won't be for any others, but I pray Knox & Sloane will be.
My heart was so full this Christmas. I think back to a year ago. I was hurting, but so optimistic. I can't believe a year later and I was holding two babies in my arms who were laughing and smiling at me. I know there is so much of Cohen in them. Whether it's in their looks or personalities. In many ways, he is still all around us and I'm so thankful for that.
I honestly can't remember if I indicated, but we had special hearts on both the babies' announcement and our Christmas card this year that included Cohen. I hope to do that every year for the holiday card. We are getting him a stocking as well. I like the idea of putting notes in it every year. Knox & Sloane can as well.
And because I do love to bake and make cookies, I have a feeling Knox & Sloane will enjoy doing that, too :) This year, for Christmas, they got an alphabet cookie cutter set. I thought every Christmas it would be fun for them to leave a "K", "S" & "C" for Santa :)
I'll be curious to see how well BT holds up, physically, as we tote him around, too :)
This is one of my favorites.....
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
“Glory to God in the highest heaven,
and on earth peace to those on whom his favor rests.”
When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”
So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger.
When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child,and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them.But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.