A year ago today Cohen went to Heaven.
I can’t believe it’s been a year.
The day before, his little body started dialysis in order to rid some of the fluid that had built up causing his edema (swelling). Cohen had undergone major open heart surgery, and many others, and his little chest was still open. His body was so swollen, they couldn’t sew it up yet. No one knew how his body would take to the dialysis, but by the next morning, it seemed to be helping. They were slowing pulling other medications off that might have been contributing to the edema.
Since some of the swelling was going down, they needed to change his breathing tube in order to fit properly. They invited us to stay in the room, but I didn’t handle seeing anything go on very well, so we declined. We opted to speak with one if his doctors instead. However, that conversation was one of the hardest we had. He laid everything out and we knew Cohen’s chances weren’t looking good unless he started going uphill in several ways. I specifically prayed for healing and no pain. When we rounded the corner going back to his room, he was going into cardiac arrest. The replacement of the breathing tube had torn his trachea.
The next conversation with the doctor was the hardest we had. Cohen would be healed, but not here with us. We have no idea what Cohen’s healing here on earth would have been like, but clearly God did.
We had six hours left with Cohen. Those hours and many
weeks following would be the hardest thing Brent and I have, and hopefully will, ever experience.
Of course we were thankful he would be healed, but devastated he wouldn’t be here.
More specific details about the conversations and that day are here and I just posted his baptism a few days ago.
I know I talk about the pictures often and those they still break pieces of my heart, but I want to look at them, because I want to see him. Brent’s mom took all these pictures.
Most of the week Cohen’s eyes were shut because he was sedated with medication. He could hear us. Since they were pulling off medication the last day and the day before, Cohen was somewhat alert. When he wasn’t sleeping could hear us and see us.
Besides the next picture, the last few pictures I’m posting have been edited. Because of the medical tape, Cohen’s little face was pretty torn up 🙁 We have lots of pictures this way, but still see his perfectness.
I know Cohen had a wonderful year in Heaven, but we sure miss him. God blessed us.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. ~ Roman 15:13
Thank you all for the love and prayers this year.
All of Cohen’s story is here.