Eleven months ago we welcome our sweet Cohen into the world 🙂
It’s weird to think we brought him into the world and he was in our arms as he left it. Though technically and thankfully, neither were in our control.
Next month it has been a year and that simply blows my mind. I see babies now that are close to his age and just imagine how he would look, act, etc. It really is the strangest thing.
I think back to this time last year and I was getting ready to move to Dallas to await for Cohen’s arrival.
This year, I’m getting ready for a garage sale, starting to put nursery together, working, etc. I’m pregnant with Cohen’s brother and sister. That is strange to think as well. It’s a huge blessing.
Does being pregnant make things easier as far as dealing with Cohen not being here? I think so. Knox and Sloane will in no way, shape or form ever replace Cohen, but they do help my heart. I became a mom once I was pregnant with Cohen. My heart broke when he had to leave us. I think being pregnant now is all part of God’s plan, clearly. Not only am I blessed with two more children, but seeing babies, going to showers, all things babies in general isn’t as hard as I know it could be. I think that’s part of my heart mending. I thank God every day for all three of my children.
I honestly think every single day someone asks me if the twins “are my first”…. I think about Cohen every day and I talk about him every day.
When I think back to Cohen’s birth and those days in the hospital with him, I see him the way I did the day he was born. He was perfect. He came into the world so brave and ready to fight and he did. I honestly believe he put up more of a fight than many expected. I know that he taught so many people many things. I’m still in awe from the emails and comments we received and occasionally still do . He taught us (Brent and myself) more than I had ever imagined possible.
Brent’s first time to hold him….
My first time to hold him…