Cohen would have turned ten months old today. Ten months ago I gave birth to him and it was the most special experience.
It’s almost been a year.
It’s ten months later and I have two of Cohen’s siblings in my belly. Sometimes it all still feels like a dream. However, I’m pretty glad I don’t have many dreams about it because I think they’d only make me sad. I do often sit and imagine what Cohen would be like right now, what he would look like. Occasionally, I’ll have flashbacks of leaving the hospital. Those are the worst.
I look at Brent and see a lot of Cohen. That, I like. There are lots of things I like. I like that so many people have come to “know” Cohen. I just often wish he was here for us to all know. Luckily, as you will see below, his spirit clearly lives on within many.
As I blogged about on Tuesday, we had the heart walk this past weekend. I’ve also blogged about the our idea to take Cohen to all the major baseball stadiums/parks. Although our local park one isn’t a major one, I still thought it was warming that’s where the heart walk happened to be.
Cohen would have already been to several stadiums. However, it’s just a tad different now, but we’re still going….
BT likes going, too….
The only thing is, Cohen isn’t physically at the stadiums with us. He is always surrounding us mentally, though…
Cohen has lots of people support him and all that he stands for 🙂
We got 12 balloons, one for each of the days he was with us. They were put into a bag one I bought them and when we woke up the following morning, they were on the ground. I thought their ability to float was gone.
We took the bag off and found that was clearly not the case..
I love the balloons and I feel like they somewhat represent Cohen is still surrounding us. Though, they will eventually pop, it’s pretty easy for us to get more. Just as it’s pretty easy for us think about Cohen.
Happy 10 months to Cohen 🙂