I know I’ve said it several times already, but I really can’t think of a better description. This year was the worst year I’ve ever had and this year was the best year I’ve ever had. How is that possible? Well, if you’ve been reading for a while, I’m sure you are well aware.
On February 11th, mine and Brent’s lives changed forever.
On June 7th , our lives changed forever.
On June 18th, our lives changed forever.
On July 1st, our lives changed forever.
Our lives changed for the better and they changed for the worse. I guess the only worse thing is simply knowing Cohen and not having him here with us physically. The better is looking forward to seeing him again and processing, and learning from, everything he and our situation has taught us.
2010 was all about Cohen for Brent and I. It will always be about Cohen.
I guess it’s bittersweet for me to see this year go. As much as I hated this year, I still loved many moments, parts and pieces of it. Even though the years will pass, I’m pretty certain 2010 will be our most memorable. It has been QUITE the roller coaster, but being totally honest…it’s ending on a high. I have peace in my heart even during the times where I feel so sad Cohen isn’t here. God has answered so many prayers this year and some I may never know the reasons, but nonetheless, I know it’s the way it should be.
I do look forward to 2011. I pray it is a better year all around. We will continue to carry Cohen with us in 2011 and for all the years to come. I won’t have those 12 days any other year like I did in 2010, but I’ll always remember them.