5 Months

Five months ago our sweet little baby went to Heaven. I can’t believe it’s been five months. I probably say that every month, but I still can’t believe it. It’s still a roller coaster. I’m starting to believe it always will be. Some days have been a lot better. Some days have been a lot worse. Unfortunately, I expect the holidays to be a bit harder. So, that probably has something to do with it. Just the thought of Christmas without my baby who would be 6 1/2 months isn’t fun. He will have an amazing Thanksgiving and Christmas, we know.

Since he is experiencing wonderful lullabies in heaven, I thought I’d post this sweet song today. Several bloggers have passed it along to me over the past few months. Thanks, ladies.

Glory Baby
by: Watermark
Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…
Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do
Sweet little babies, it’s hard to
understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…
I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…

Jessica was so kind to put most everything together for Cohen’s Memorial Service. She has now started a little design business, which is smart (because she is good). She created these pretty programs for the service…

 The picture and paragraph are the ones that were used in Cohen’s obituaries. No, I still don’t like the word. I’m still not sure I’ve said it aloud. Speaking of, I need to get those laminated.

I’m working on Cohen’s Christmas tree, and I will post pics when I’m done :)

“let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” Hebrews 10:23



  1. says

    Those are beautiful lullabies. My mom passed away very suddenly about 3 weeks ago and I like to think she gets to play Grandma to all the angel babies in heaven since she got such a short amount of time with her grandson here on Earth. I'll have to tell her tonight in my prayers to sing one of those to Cohen. :)

  2. says

    Megan, the tears are flowing from eyes. I wish I could hug you and make this pain go away. Cohen and Ewan have truly touched my soul and make me a better mother. I think of each of them every day. He is with all of us this holiday season. Big hugs.

  3. says

    Ugh. This breaks my heart. You're such a strong woman and such an inspiration. I can't believe it's been that long either, and I'm just a reader! I can't wait to see the tree!
    And Mrs EyeCanSee, you made my heart smile. I'd love to think all of the sweet grandmas and grandpas that are in heaven are now holding all of the precious babies and children up there.

    Hang in there Megan. You're amazing. Lots of love to you during this holiday season.

  4. says

    That Christmas tree is such an amazing, inspiring, and beautiful idea. You're right, all those papers from the funeral are gorgeous. My brother died when he was 13 and the holidays to this day are tough on the family. My parents have found it best to allow themselves a little grieving time in the mornign and to make sure they take the time to remember him. I hope you are able to find time to do the same. Don't let people tell you it's not a time to be sad. I hate it when people tell them that.

  5. says

    This is so beautiful, and so heartbreaking. I am not a believer, but your Faith is so strong, even through the worst of times a human can live through. There's definitely something to it

  6. says

    It is hard to believe it has been 5 months….I have been so blessed by your blog so I thank you for continuing to share Cohen with us, even when it is difficult. On November 1st my best friend passed away and although I know she is healed I feel her loss in my life especially now. Our daughter is due to be born in the next 5 weeks and will carry on my friend's name. Knowing she won't be here to "meet" her is a struggle even in spite of the happiness I feel that we will one day be reunited because of Christ's sacrifice. My prayers go out to both you and Brent in the next 2 months as the Holidays come.

  7. says

    Our son was born asleep two years, 10 months, and four weeks ago. Even after this amount of time has passed, some days are harder than others. My Mom passed away in March and I know that she is enjoying spending time with my sweet boy. I look forward to seeing your Christmas tree for Cohen. I pray for peace and comfort for you during the holidays.

  8. says

    :( I think of Cohen all the time. Hard to believe it's been 5 months. I love that you're doing a tree for him, you think of such sweet ways to remember him.

  9. says

    I just read through all of your posts under Cohen's story. God Bless you, your family and your little angel in heaven. I cry as I type this and cannot even begin to imagine your pain, but what a blessing it is to know that Cohen is with the Lord.
    Praying for you and sending you love.

  10. says

    I really can't believe five months have gone by.

    I do know Cohen is loving heaven! Especially with the holidays coming up.. You know he is having a big time celebrating! And when I tell my grandmother, who is Timothys guardian angel, to look after him; I also tell her to take of Cohen up there with her in heaven! :)

  11. says

    What a sad and beautiful lullaby. I can't believe its been 5 months already either.
    I can't wait to see the Christmas tree. I'm sure it will be just perfect. Cohen is definitely smiling down on you right now.

  12. says

    Thinking of you! I have been following your journey for a while now and I cannot believe it has been 5 months.

    Today is my son's 3rd birthday – only he is celebrating in Heaven. Maybe Cohen is there too? A party in Heaven…

    Stay strong – the holidays are tough. Can't wait to see his tree!

  13. says

    Hi dearest Megan, what an absolutely beautiful lullaby, I have tears running down my cheeks. You and Brent are always in my thoughts and prayers, and we know your sweet baby boy has so many angels rocking him tight up in heaven. We all love you and are here for you always!! xoxoxo

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