I didn’t/don’t mean to have two such heavy posts back-to-back. I really do not like for anyone to have a heavy heart. I wrote another post yesterday. I was going to post it right now. I have so much to say to you all for being so kind to me. I’m busting at the seams. However, something else came up. A friend of mine sent me a message on Facebook letting me know about October 15th.
To me, October 15th usually means the day before my mom’s birthday.
I now know it is also the official day of remembrance of pregnancy and infancy loss. If you have miscarried or had a child pass away, today is a noted special day to remember them. I know many of you have very few moments when you aren’t thinking about your children, but today, you can remember all those special moments you had….on purpose. They always cross your mind for a reason, but today you are not alone. You are never alone. Some losses are spoken of and some aren’t. Regardless, they are part of you and part your heart.
My 246 days with Cohen weren’t near enough. Especially considering the majority of them he was in my belly. How is that ever enough?
I will think of all of those who are without their child. Whether you were pregnant or you have given birth and have no child to hold, I know the pain is there. God has a plan. I know that’s hard to consider sometimes. You wonder what your plan is. You wonder why your plan is what is what it is. Believe me, I know. It sucks sometimes. It’s life.
I’m thankful for you and what you have been through. But I do hate it for you. I hate it for me. But I guess I’m becoming okay with it….sometimes. It happened to me for a reason. It happened to you for a reason.
I’m praying for those of you wanting a child to hold in your arms.
I’m praying with thankfulness that I get to hold Cohen in my arms again, someday.
Brent and I will participate in the wave of light by lighting a candle at 7pm tonight (which you can read more about on the website).
We are blessed to have those of you who have supported us throughout our journey.
Here is the site to find out more information.
Here is the video my friend sent me…
My post for you, all of you, will come soon.
Happy Friday. Someday, I will tell you more about what today means.
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