I’ve been meaning to post this for a while. We had Cohen’s Memorial Service on July 1st. Talk about hard day. It was probably the second worst day next to the night he went to heaven. It is definitely a day we never imagined we would have. It didn’t, and still doesn’t, seem real sometimes.
When I think about that day, I still feel the way I felt. I still remember all the words said to us in the sermon. I have an audio disc of the service. I’ve still not listened to it, but I’ve thought about it.
I still remember thinking I don’t want people to see me hurt because I don’t want them to hurt for me. I hate that feeling. I know it’s inevitable though. I feel like physically, I did better than I thought I would. I thought I wouldn’t be able to walk or talk, but I did. I thought I wouldn’t be able to talk because I’d be crying so hard, but that wasn’t the case. I had peace. Cohen was healed. Even though I was broken, mine and Brent’s life would go on. I didn’t think it was fair that we were having that day, but if it took that day to make Cohen better and safe from sickness, I was willing to come to terms with it.
When I think of that day, I still think of all those blogs that shared a moment of silence for our family. I thanked God for all those people and everyone else that supported us, too.
Jessica pretty much set everything up for the service. She read this poem during and her husband, Kyle, did the eulogy (which I will share at some point). She also created the program, which I will also be sharing soon.
Here is the slideshow that played at the beginning and end of the service. Jessica put it together. Brent’s mom took most of the pictures. Some were also taken by a Children’s photographer since we were going to do a documentary. Brent and I took a few as well.
Just a warning, if you are at work….you may want to wait until you get home!
The song is Jeff Buckley’s version of Hallelujah. It’s my favorite. Leonard COHEN wrote the song and recorded it in 1984. That was the year I was born. Ironic.
Sorry the video won’t play in some countries because of the copyright on the song.
I love the sideshow and I hate it. Naturally.
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