I made Cohen's pumpkin last week :)
Yes, I know I'm no good at painting : / I did the same thing on both sides, but think I like the side shown better.
When I got home today there was a letter from the Department of Pastoral Care at Children's.
It was a letter to notify us that Cohen's autopsy report has been finalized. My heart sank. I knew it was coming, but I didn't know when. When we found out Cohen would be going to heaven, his doctor asked us about doing an autopsy. He said they would love to do an in depth one because it would help with research. We told them that would be fine. It took them a few days to do it and they told us it would be up to six months before the report was complete. The letter gave us a number and said we can call to set up an appointment to meet with his physician to go over it, if we would like. We are going to. We also plan to get his medical records. It still feels like a bad dream sometimes. Part of me doesn't want to know more, but most of me does. How could I not? Will it make me feel worse? I have no clue.
No matter what, he was still perfect....
Hope you all had a good Monday! I will post the rest of my pumpkins soon!
***I'm going to extend the Stella & Dot giveaway until tomorrow because random.org wouldn't load earlier.
Every time I read your blog, I just marvel at what a beautiful spirit you have.
ReplyDeleteAdorable pumpkin, too. :)
Very cute pumpkin, Megan!
ReplyDeleteI agree with 'legallymarried'. The pumpkin is really cute :)
ReplyDeleteThe pumpkin is adorable. His first pumpkin.
ReplyDeleteGetting the autopsy report for Cora was one of the worst days of my life. It was harder than I ever could have imagined. I didn't expect it to be so hard. Please make sure you're surrounded by love that day. And, take care of you. I'm so sorry you have to get that report. xo
As a woman married to a very soon to be doctor, and more importantly a Mommy, I want to thank you for allowing them to do the biopsy. It will do so much good, not only for science, but mostly for other parents out there that are going through similar complications. You two, no take that back, you THREE are so special.
ReplyDeleteLovely pumpkin!! Stay strong.
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love the pumpkin! It was meant to be his pumpkin :)
ReplyDeleteAnd I think its smart to get your autopsy results. You'll be glad that you have them...
I think your 'highlights' were angels wrapping their arms around you and Cohen in love and comfort.
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong. The autopsy may be the "why" - hopefully it will help the doctors save other babies. I agree to make sure that you are surrounded by love when you meet with the doctor.
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong. Wish I could give you a big hug.
ReplyDeleteI love Cohen's little pumpkin. Praying for your strength as you hear the report!
ReplyDeleteThat is cutest pumpkin ever!! Love it!! And I love that you have it by that framed picture!! I would do the same thing if I were you!
ReplyDeleteAbout the results, I think that I would be the same way about that as well! Wanting to know but at the same time almost not wanting to know and not knowing what to feel or expect. I think it's good you are doing it and I think that whatever it is you do find out could help others who are going through the same.
Your strength and amazing spirit is SO inspiring Megan!! Looking forward to seeing the rest of your pumpkins sweet girl!!
I love the pumpkin, I think it's perfect! Your painting looks great :)
ReplyDeleteI love the pumpkin. You are so strong and I'm sure it will give you peace of mind to go over the results. We are all behind you and support you immensely.
ReplyDeleteThat is the cutest pumpkin! I will be saying a prayer that you can find more peace with the results. I am sure it will be very hard, but just know you have so many people praying for you every day:)
ReplyDeleteAdorable pumpkin--and bless your heart for all that you've been through.
ReplyDeleteHe sure was perfect Megan. I love his pumpkin, I think you did a great job painting! I won't begin to think I know how you feel about getting an autopsy report on that precious babe, but I'm sure that down the road, you will be happy that you did it, not just for yourselves, and for any way that it might contribute to medical research to help other babies.
ReplyDeleteI think your pumpkin for Cohen looks great! I hope your appointment goes well. I admire your strength.
ReplyDelete*hugs*
Love the pumpkin!!!
ReplyDeleteLove the pumpkin, Megan! I'll be praying that the appointment and the report give y'all peace and don't add an ounce more to your grief. You are amazing parents to allow them a chance to learn more about Cohen's heart and help future heart babies like him! You're right - he was perfect. :)
ReplyDeletePraying for you guys all the time. And I love the pumpkin. So beautiful.
ReplyDeleteLove the pumpkin....for your lil pumpkin! :)
ReplyDeleteBeautiful pumpking even eith it's nicked heart.
ReplyDeleteYour fight and spirit for sweet baby cohen, even after his passing, is inspiring. Always thinking about you.
ReplyDeletelove the pumpkin!
ReplyDeletethank you for allowing them to do the autopsy. even though it is so difficult for you and brent, it is amazing that some other baby may be helped by what they find and learn from cohen. cohen is such a blessing, even from heaven!
The pumpkin turned out perfect! Always thinking of you guys.
ReplyDeleteThis post was precious! Love the pumpkin!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI came across this quote and thought of you. "When you have come to the edge of all the light you know, and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly."
ReplyDeleteHave a great weekend. Adorable pumpkin!
{{hugs}}
ReplyDeleteand I love your pumpkin. :)
I love the pumpkin, it's perfect! xoxo
ReplyDeleteI just came across your blog today and have been captivated for hours. You are an inspiration!
ReplyDeleteLove the Pumpkin!
ReplyDelete- I think it's very strong [& awesome] of you & Brent to let them do an Autopsy! It could help save a life in the future! :D
So precious. I love the way you find happy ways to remember him. Bless you guys!
ReplyDeleteOh, Megan. I just read this, and I have tears running down my face. What a sweet spirit you have.
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