8.18.2010

Two months ago...

our angel baby went to heaven. we miss him. lots.



{both pictures taken on 6.18.10}

Thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come strait here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"

Thanks for the poem, LeAnn.


I feel like every day is either the 7th or the 18th. Some days I'm happy and some days I'm sad. Some moments I'm happy and some moments I'm sad.



"For He is their life and the length of their days" - Deuteronomy 30:20



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65 comments :

  1. praying for you. Heaven's glory has got to be the most beautiful place...but I wish he could be here with you.

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  2. Thinking of you and Brent today, xoxo!

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  3. Thinking of you and praying for you and Brent today! HUGS.

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  4. Thinking of you today. {{{{HUGS}}}}

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  5. While viewing another blog I came acrossed your blog about a month and half ago...your story of your beautiful family, but most importantaly your beautiful little boy, touched my heart greatly. Please know that not even knowing you personally, I follow your blog regularly and feel that I do know you personally. You bring me to tears often, but to know that your little "Cohen" is up above in a special place watching over you and your husband makes it more special. Thoughts and Prayers Always!!

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  6. Oh, Megan…. I hope you read my tweet for you today because I had no idea why you were on my heart so much today and the date didn’t even click with me and then I read this!!!! I love you!!!!

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  7. What a beautiful poem. Sending a hug your way

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  8. I have tears in my eyes...sending some good thoughts your way

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  9. Oh that poem is beautiful! Praying for y'all!

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  10. The Tears are filling my eyelids up! This was an incredible poem! I loved it. Thinking of you and Brent today! ♥ Sending Love & Support!

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  11. Praying that God continues to help you find peace and healing in the days ahead. I sincerely admire you for your faith among so many other things. You are remarkable in the eyes of so many. ((hugs))

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  12. This is such a beautiful poem, I hold you in my prayers.

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  13. I'm so glad you have this outlet (the blog) to write about the way you feel. You are so strong...those moments where you allow yourself to cry show that most. Don't deny yourself moments of grief! What a beautiful boy Cohen is!

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  14. Wow, what a beautiful poem! You are a mommy. There is no doubt about that...the love that you and your husband have for Cohen is so strong and clear, even to those of us that don't know you in "real life". I continue to pray for you both! Your reunion with Cohen will be a beautiful, joyous one. I know that doesn't prevent the tears and the times of sadness, I can't even imagine.

    Prayers for peace and comfort,
    Christina Gomez

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  15. Love that poem. Praying for you guys always!

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  16. precious prayers being said for you today for a precious baby boy's memory.

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  17. again I'm in tears. This poem is so truly beautiful and sad. Praying for you guys for finding strength and happiness and praying for Cohen to find his peace and rest.

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  18. Thinking of you. It is so hard to know you are a mom but your baby isn't with you physically. I love this poem. I have an angel too and it's been three and half years and there are still sad days, but there are more happy ones.

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  19. Thinking of you and parying that it will get easier!

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  20. Praying for you guys today! Heaven needed another beautiful angel! He is looking down on you guys!

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  21. Thinking of you...
    What a beautiful poem. It brought tears to my eyes!

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  22. My thoughts & prayers are with you both.

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  23. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family today.

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  24. My heart goes out to you today, and each day as you continue to grieve and heal. I will say an extra prayer for you and Brent today.

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  25. Praying for you today & always. What a beautiful poem. I can't imagine your pain & feeling of emptiness, but a poem like that puts things into perspective. Oh, what a fabulous party he must be enjoying up in Heaven!!

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  26. That is so sweet and beautiful. Sending hugs and prayers your way!

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  27. Hi Megan,

    My name is Brittany. I've been following your blog for about a month or so now but haven't commented yet. I just wanted to tell you that I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your husband are so amazing and strong and it's obvious that your love for each other is so beautiful.

    My husband and I just went through the miscarriage of our first baby. It's been so heartbreaking. The poem that you posted today really touched me. While we have different religious/spiritual beliefs, I still appreciated what the poem meant.

    Anyway, I'm just a stranger who thinks about you and Brent a lot (Brent is my husband's name too :) and wanted to reach out and say hello.

    Love, Brittany

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  28. What a beautiful poem and a beautiful boy. Praying for you and Brent today!

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  29. So sweet. Praying and thinking of you today!

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  30. Megan, this is beautiful and so true...sending hugs your way today! How perfect...

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  31. I found your blog via another blog I follow and I look for your updates regularly. You and your husband have been in my prayers through this difficult time. I am a mother of 2 wonderful boys but I recently had a miscarriage. This poem has touch me because I know one day I will meet this little one when I get to Heaven. I never got to hold him/her but the baby will always hold a piece of my heart. Thank you for sharing and I will continue to pray for you both.

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  32. That poem is beautiful; I'm in tears just praying for you and Brent today. Knowing that we're sending you lots of love!

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  33. That poem is so sweet and meant for you. Thinking of you.

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  34. That poem is so gorgeous. Wow. Thinking about you guys and sending prayers each day for you.

    xoxo
    Jen

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  35. What an awesome poem.

    Praying for you today!

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  36. Have tears in my eyes thinking of you and your family today. The poem was wonderful. Thanks for sharing!

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  37. praying for you girl. i know how hard it is :(

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  38. What a beautiful poem! My thoughts are with you!

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  39. Praying for you and Brent today. That is a beautiful poem. He's always with you.

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  40. How can 2 months go by so fast and yet so slow at the same time. Praying for you daily and sending you hugs.

    someone gave me that poem as well when my son went to heaven, hard to believe it's almost been 10 months.

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  41. Thinking of you, so much. Sending lots of love and big hugs.

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  42. My thoughts and prayers are with you always. IS it me or is Cohen Smiling at Mommy & Daddy in that picture? God Bless you both!

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  43. What an absolutely beautiful poem. My thoughts and prayers are with you today.

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  44. I cry everytime I think about Cohen, and your broken heart. So proud of the way you and B handle all the stress and pain!
    xxoxo

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  45. Said a prayer for you this morning. Lots of love to yall!

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  46. I am sure you have heard or read these lyrics before, but I thought of you when I heard it today. By the way, I requested you as a friend on Facebook so if you see a random request it´s me :) Praying for you.
    Held by Natalie Grant

    Two months is too little
    They let him go
    They had no sudden healing
    To think that providence
    Would take a child from his mother
    While she prays, is appalling
    Who told us we'd be rescued
    What has changed and
    Why should we be saved from nightmares
    We're asking why this happens to us
    Who have died to live, it's unfair

    [Chorus]
    This is what it means to be held
    How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
    And you survive
    This is what it is to be loved and to know
    That the promise was when everything fell
    We'd be held

    This hand is bitterness
    We want to taste it and
    Let the hatred numb our sorrows
    The wise hand opens slowly
    To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

    [Chorus]
    This is what it means to be held
    How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
    And you survive
    This is what it is to be loved and to know
    That the promise was when everything fell
    We'd be held
    [Bridge]
    If hope is born of suffering
    If this is only the beginning
    Can we not wait, for one hour
    Watching for our savior
    [Chorus]
    This is what it means to be held
    How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
    And you survive
    This is what it is to be loved and to know
    That the promise was when everything fell
    We'd be held
    We'd be held

    This is what it is to be loved and to know
    That the promise was when everything fell
    We'd be held

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  47. I still think and pray for you and Brent everyday!

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  48. Beautiful poem.

    Philippians 4:7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

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  50. what a beautiful poem! you and brent are so strong! enjoy special time thinking and dreaming of cohen. you will continue to be in my prayers!

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  51. I know you're a mother! :) Praying for you guys extra today!

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  52. Thinking of you and Brent today. Sending prayers for comfort your way.

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  53. He is the most precious little angel that Heaven has :) I'm counting on him to help me through my first day of school tomorrow!

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  54. I just want you to know I pray for you every day. I cannot imagine standing in your shoes. Although I love my little dearly one I get frustrated from time to time. Then I read a post like yours & have to thank God for the opportunity to see her through the easy days and the not so easy ones. She's my princess & I can't bear the thought of not having her in my life. Praying for you & Brent!!!

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  55. Praying for you and your husband. It is so hard to say goodbye.

    That poem got me through a lot of tough times when my son passed away. I would keep it under my pillow -now it is framed by my bedside.

    Take care of yourself!

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  56. Praying for you guys.


    HELD BY NATALIE GRANT

    Two months is too little
    They let him go
    They had no sudden healing
    To think that providence
    Would take a child from his mother
    While she prays, is appalling
    Who told us we'd be rescued
    What has changed and
    Why should we be saved from nightmares
    We're asking why this happens to us
    Who have died to live, it's unfair

    [Chorus]
    This is what it means to be held
    How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
    And you survive
    This is what it is to be loved and to know
    That the promise was when everything fell
    We'd be held

    This hand is bitterness
    We want to taste it and
    Let the hatred numb our sorrows
    The wise hand opens slowly
    To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

    [Chorus]
    This is what it means to be held
    How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
    And you survive
    This is what it is to be loved and to know
    That the promise was when everything fell
    We'd be held
    [Bridge]
    If hope is born of suffering
    If this is only the beginning
    Can we not wait, for one hour
    Watching for our savior
    [Chorus]
    This is what it means to be held
    How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
    And you survive
    This is what it is to be loved and to know
    That the promise was when everything fell
    We'd be held
    We'd be held

    This is what it is to be loved and to know
    That the promise was when everything fell
    We'd be held

    This is what it means to be held.....

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  57. uhhh...made me cry. beautiful poem. thanks for sharing.

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  58. I never stop praying for you love... Cohen sure has one amazing Mom.

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  59. I can't believe it's already been two months. Lots of hugs and prayers for you guys.

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  60. That is a beautiful poem. Every time I read your blog I think about my baby sister who also left this earth very early. I know that she is in Heaven with our Heavenly Father. I am so glad to know that they are taken care of and don't have earthly worries. Sometimes life is very hard and can be a struggle to get through, I know that is is worth it though. Thinking of you, even though I don't know you. <3

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