7.19.2010

Baby Blue

I've always been a big fan of the Dave Matthews Band. I've seen them tons of times and I had heard this song. I have recently had several people email me about it. I was scared to listen to it now as I knew it would take on a new meaning. It does. It is a beautiful song. Yes, sad.




Confess, your kiss still knocks me off my legs.
The first time I saw you was like a punch right through my chest
and I will forever, cause you’ll forever be
my one true broken heart, pieces inside of me; and you’ll forever, my baby be.


You will rest your head, your strength once saving.
And when you wake you will fly away,
holding tight to the legs of all your angels.
Goodbye my love, into your blue, blue eyes,
your blue, blue world, you're my baby blue.

Confess I'm not quite ready to be left.
Still, I know I gave my level best.
You give, you give, to this I can attest
You made me, you made me.
You and me forever, baby.




You will rest your head, your strength once saving.
And when you wake you will fly away,
holding tight to the legs of all your angels.
Goodbye my love, into your blue, blue eyes,
in your blue, blue world, you and me forever.

You will rest your head, your strength once saving.
And when you wake you will fly away,
holding tight to the legs of all your angels.
Goodbye my love, into your blue, blue eyes,
in your blue, blue world, you and me forever.


if you want to hear......



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66 comments :):

Dishy Decorator said...

Oh sweet girl...sitting here crying. Such a beautiful song. I'm so glad you are finding ways to express your feelings. I hope you continue to do so. When I had a miscarriage, I got a letter from a friend that said, "You have every right to be sad, mad, numb, bitter, or even jealous of other mothers. You also have the right to laugh and have a good time when the time comes. Every feeling you can own without guilt.They are yours to own."

Big hugs to you. You are in my prayers;-)

Lindsey said...

Wow, such a beautiful, touching song!! I know it is bitter sweet to listen to it, but there is something about songs that I feel help heal your heart and soul! Hugs!!

Lindsey said...

Oh and that first photo is SO beautiful! I know you will always cherish it and all the photos you have!!

Valene Marie said...

This song is so touching and humbling. I can't express to you how Cohen and your story has touched my life and the lives of so many. Such an innocent angel can change the lives of so many.

I thank you for sharing your story.

Ams said...

Breaks my heart sweet lady...
Beautiful song and Cohen was just the most amazing little man.
Sending you hugs and love!
xo

bayleesmommy07 said...

Megan -

that brought tears to my eyes, even more so when I listened to the song. I know how it is so hard, it has been 5 years since I lost my son 5 months in. I sometimes to this day cannot believe it is real & how easily something simple reminds me of him or certain memories. It does get easier that I can say but is still so hard at times.

I have been a silent observer for the majority, think I have commented a few times. I do hope you received the card I had sent you. I hope it brought you some semblance of happiness during the times that were hard. I am so happy to have come across your blog & learned of Cohen & his story. I was so heartbroken to hear of his passing but knew he would be welcomed with open arms & would no longer be suffering.

Will continue to pray & think of you & Brent. Will look forward to hearing more from you.

With Love,
Jackie

The Design Girl said...

Beautiful, beautiful song. I actually hadn't heard this one and love DMB. It will always remind me of Cohen now.

Kerry said...

<3

Summer said...

Oh sweet girl! I sit here crying while I type this! What a beautiful post, a beautiful baby boy!

You are in my prayers....big hugs to you

xoxo
Summer

Lynsey and Brian said...

What a touching song! I will forever be reminded of Cohen when I hear it. Sending you big hugs and prayers!

Charbelle said...

I haven't commented often but I have been praying for you. This post brought tears, it's so beautiful. Thank you for sharing with us! I have no words to offer other than ya'll are often in my prayers!

Meghan said...

It is such a beautiful song and honestly has many meanings/interpretations. My fiance and I are using it as our first song at our wedding. Symbolizing how much we still make eachother catch our breath to this day (after almost 5 years of dating), and that even when we do lose one another down the road- forever will we be together.

Mommarazzi said...

Goosebumps! Amazed by your strength. Music has a way of helping heal.
Praying still.

Aly said...

That picture of you and Brent is gorgeous. That song will continue to be very special to you two. Still thinking of you both.

Virginia Belle said...

This is such a beautiful and touching post, the song and pictures. You're still in my thoughts and prayers!

Lauren Kelly said...

This is just beautiful Megan, thanks for sharing. Love you!!!

KLaw said...

A friend of mine shared this song with me after we lost our first baby through a miscarriage at 12 weeks. I still have a hard time listening to it, but it does bring me a smile at the same time. Thinking of you... all the time.

Nicole said...

Thank you for sharing.

Courtney said...

Beautiful song. All the photos are lovely. The one that speaks to me most is the last - Cohen grasping your fingers. Brings tears to my eyes. Blessings & peace to you both.

Classy Fab Sarah said...

Hugs.

Leslie said...

Beautiful pictures. Thank you for sharing. I still stand amazed at the strength you and Brent have. You are such an example to me, and I think of you guys often.

Blessings and love from Hog country :) (Rogers, AR)

Leslie

KyleAmandaLogan said...

Wow...what a wonderful song!! I have been praying for you daily and I will continue!

KyleAmandaLogan said...

And I LOVE all your pictures! I know they are priceless to you!

Sarah said...

Everything about this post is beautiful. Cohen, you, the song
thanks for sharing! Hugs xoxo

nmassie218 said...

So beautiful, thanks for sharing. Sending you lots of prayers and big hugs.

Katie said...

Love that song. I love Dave for his honest, beautiful lyrics and haunting melodies. Glad he could help you express some of how you are feeling.

Lauren said...

Wow...what a beautiful post & beautiful song! & that first photo is absolutely stunning!

Jenny said...

Wow - that first picture is BEAUTIFUL....very touching!!

My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you and your husband

Aja said...

So bittersweet.. I just think music has such a way of expressing what we're feeling and can be so healing sometimes. So glad this song has helped in some way! Big hugs!
Aja

Katie said...

what a song... I feel like I might've heard it JUST recently somewhere... I'm racking my brain to figure out where. So sweet though and like Design girl said, it will always remind me of you and Cohen now.

Sweet Simplicity said...

What a beautiful song!

Sara said...

Oh, this post brought me chills and tears to my eyes. This is a beautiful song and I'm so glad you can find comfort in letting it express your feelings for you.

I think Dishy Decorator said it very well in that you are allowed to own every emotion and feeling.

Mrs. Dirnberger said...

Not that you need to listen to anything else sappy...but another great song is "God speaks" (you might have to google it I am not sure if that is the title exactly) by the Dixie Chicks. Its beautiful

Kathryn said...

Megan, you are so brave, so sweet and so strong! Thank you for sharing your story/life with all of us. You inspire me everyday. I hope you know how much you,Brent and Cohen have taught so many! I wake up everyday and pray for you and your family. I also pray to have the strength you have. Your story has grown my faith and trust in God! Thank you for opening up to us all and PLEASE know you have many prayers and many warm thoughts for you both!!! You and Brent are AMAZING parents and all your future children will be so very blessed to have you to as their parents. I pray & know that God will bless you both in many ways :)

Tiffany said...

Oh my gosh, Megan. I had never realyl listened to the words of that song. It's like it was written for you. Although they are so hard to look at, I am so glad you have so many photos of your sweet Cohen. What a blessing to treasure forever.

Melissa said...

Megan,

These pictures and those words are so perfect, sad, beautiful...no words cannot do it justice...

kitty said...

CHILLS! down both legs. and i'm sitting at starbucks in a sweater drinking coffee when it's at least 90 out.
glad you are able to enjoy the beautiful things in life even through your sadness. praying for continued strength and comfort!

Annie said...

such a beautiful song and touching post. thoughts and prayers remain with you and brent.
sending hugs to you sweet girl.

Jeannie said...

What a beautiful perfect song!

Crystal Corona said...

I have been following you for over a year now - maybe longer - from a link on Jessica's page, but this is my first comment. I can't even begin to understand how you are feeling this summer. I agree that you have the right to feel anyway you do, and you seem to be doing a great job of "feeling" it out on your blog.

I hate that having making a family can bring such heartache and pain to anyone. You have been through so much this past year. You are the mom to a precious baby boy who lives in your heart. I wish you the very best in the future and that you have the best memories of Cohen and your pregnancy.

mFw said...

Such a sweet post! Hope you're doing okay!

littledaisymay said...

What a beautiful song, lyrics, and pictures! Still thinking of y'all :)

Nicolasa said...

What a beautiful song. {hugs}

Kristin &amp; Benson said...

Megan,

I have never commented on your blog but read it every day the last two months I was pregnant with Luke. I prayed and cried with you through Cohen's journey. The day you posted on my blog while we were in the hospital, I broke down. I know you didn't know me and had no way of knowing how closely I followed your story - but somehow, you found me. Now, just a few weeks apart.. we both sit here with empty arms and broken hearts. Please know that I think of you daily and I think of our beautiful baby boys meeting each other in Heaven. I would love to talk more - feel free to email me, kristinsexton@yahoo.com.

"I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy." - John 16:20.

Praying for you.

Kristin Sexton
http://lukesexton.blogspot.com

Kenli said...

I continually check your blog, but have yet to leave a comment. When I read your story, I was overcome. I have heard this song, and it actually made me think of you when it came on my Pandora Dave Matthews Radio. I'm thinking about your family and sending my prayers. Hugs!

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Brittany said...

Beautiful pictures and song lyrics. You're family continues to be in my prayers.

Adie said...

Such beautiful pictures! Love Dave.

Southern Champagne Wishes said...

I love the pictures where baby Cohen is holding onto your fingers. They are such precious photos. Sending many hugs and prayers to you.

Jen said...

Megan, I LOVE DMB!!! We are actually going to their concert when they are here in September and I cannot wait. That song is just perfect for that beautiful little boy of yours. Love the pictures as well.

Newlywed and Decorating said...

Beautiful, precious song!! Still praying for you and your sweet angel.

Andrea said...

Beautiful post! Brought me to tears! You are so strong! I am praying for you guys each and every day and will forever think of Cohen when I hear this song! Thank you for sharing!

Mary said...

What a beautiful and touching song.

(((Hugs)))

Kaelin said...

What a beautiful song to tell your story. I am sitting here with tears in my eyes and my heart breaks for you.

You will be in my thoughts and prayers and may God give you all the strength in the world.

whitney said...

Wow, I don't think I've ever heard that before. So sweet. I know who I'll think about when I hear it now :) Love you!

Simply Amy said...

I know whenever I hear this song I will be thinking of you and your family. DMB is my favorite band, and that song is beautiful. God Bless you!

Big Hugs!

Emily said...

that song will forever have new meaning to me now! It will remind me of you and your sweet sweet cohen

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Momof4 said...

Hi Megan! I have not posted before, but I have followed your blog for months now. I am deeply saddened by everything you have been through. I had a still born child at 34 weeks gestation and no one can understand a mother's grief until they go through it. I avoided going out too, for fear of who I would run into. The one time I did venture out, I ran into a friend who didn't know and she asked when I had my baby. I will never forget the look on her face when I burst into tears letting her know he had passed. I felt bad for her because she didn't know and you could see the remorse in her face for asking. My husband was my rock, and I don't think I could have made it without him. I know Brent is the same way for you. I can make a list of bad remarks people would make about me losing my baby. Like "It's better now than when he was older". Totally inappropriate! But just know that you have thousands of people praying for you and that Cohen will always be with you. I wish I could say it gets easier with time, but in reality it doesn't. I miss him just the same as I did eight years ago! I just hang onto the promise that I will see him again one day in heaven. We waited one year to have our other son, and each person is different! Don't let others judge when or if you have another child. You are not replacing Cohen, you are simply creating another child out of love :) We are still praying here in IL!

Yasmin said...

Bitter sweet post... I first came across your blog on July 1st. All I could do then was cry since Cohen's is such a touching story. I had a miscarriage before I had my son and the emotions you go through then are so over-whelming. I know what I felt then was nothing compared to carrying your baby to full term and then having God want him more but I do feel for you... I held my son a little longer, hugged him a little tighter that night!

I will keep you in my prayers. You are an amazingly strong person and I pray that God continues to give you strength to get through this hard time. Your son has touched more lives than you know and I thank you for sharing your story. It has made me more thankful for what I have.

Beautiful pictures - all of them! Keeping you and Brent in my thoughts and prayers. Take care!!

Ainslee said...

I am a fairly new readyer - 6 months new maybe. I have followed Cohen's story and prayed many nights for your family too! What a journey your family has been through, and what a fighter Cohen is! I love that you share all your pictures and stories and talk about him so openly! I love the faith you have in Jesus Christ! Thank you for sharing your memories, experinces, heart aches, struggles and more with everyone.

I have a 12 month old little boy and this is my comfort song, period. Regardless of what is going on! The name is Never Alone. Sung by Lady Antebellum and Jim Brickman! please listen to the words and know that Cohen will always be with you wherever you are!

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You're an inspiration to all!

brae&amp;joey said...

That is such a BEAUTIFUL song! I am glad to see that you are able to express yourself through pictures/ songs and whatever else you may choose! I love your blog and BECAUSE you're so wonderful, I honored you with a Blog Award!
Go to my blog, check it out, and share your love!


Hugs and prayers go out to you!

Lara said...

I just discovered your blog, and I am amazed. You are a very strong and inspirational woman, and I wish you the best in your future.
XO.

Blue-Eyed Bride said...

definitely crying. such a sweet, beautiful song.

i love reading your thoughts and i love that you trust us all so much to share with us. i love your honesty. and it's just good to hear from you.

we love you very very much!

Becky said...

beautiful photos and such a handsome boy...thinking of you always! Becky :)

Meant to be a mom said...

Oh Megan. You've brought me to tears. I think so many of us feel connected to you forever now.

I want you to know I'm still thinking of you and praying for you guys.
I still think of Cohen often. I know he's happy and well. He wasn't even mine and I miss him myself a little for you.

Just know that we are thinking of you. You have tons of friends and supporters. It won't fix anything or take away the hurt but just know we are hurting with you, even if its not to the same degree. We feel your pain also.

Hugs!

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