Things are starting to change....

First of all, I dread going to bed and having to wake up in the middle of the night...so, I stay up WAY too late.

Last week I started waking up about 3am. Mind you, last week the temp was in the teens or single digits. I've been waking up SO unbelievably HOT. I turn the fan on of course..after I get up and splash water my face. Usually, we sleep with the fan on but since it has been so cold, we have not. We keep our house temp at about 68. My poor husband's teeth are chattering and he is pulling the covers off me freezing. I don't mind him taking the covers until 5 minutes later I'm cold again. As soon as I take the blanket off me, I'm cold and if I put it on, I BURN up. Four hours of sleep is NOT the same as it use to be. I'm thinking I may get a small fan for my night table. I think maybe if I just had cold air blowing in my face I'd feel better...as though I had a cold wet wash cloth on my forehead. I don't know how many of my fellow bloggers (that I may or may not know) have ever been through menopause, but if you have and have any recommendation on the whole night sweats thing..please let me know!

Megan - "I feel like watching TV in bed."
Brent - "I've gotta take a shower first."
Megan - "Me too."
Brent - "Well, you go ahead.."
Megan - "Why me?"
Brent - "So you can have the hot water and I'll take what is left."
Megan - "Aw, thanks honey."

So, I like to take hot showers...long ones. I love my husband. Is hot water on my body bad before I try to sleep?

I'm nauseated most the time. More so after I eat but still I just kind of feel like constant motion sickness. I put a call into my nurse to see what I could do to better this, if anything. I take my vitamins with something for breakfast or lunch and then the 2nd dose after dinner, closer to bed. I've not noticed any mood swings really. You can maybe ask my husband other wise. I think he is aware and just maybe alters his perspective? haha.

I still think it's weird that I'm going through menopause. I still thank God that my insurance is paying 100% of this $700 a-month shot. We did receive our first bill from fertility doctor. Lets just say it was below $10,000 and above $5,000. That is before insurance. So, we're anxiously awaiting the new bill...especially considering I've only had one shot. The bill wasn't all itemized since it was pre-insurance..but I'm willing to bet it includes November and December...which is good, I guess? I thank God for giving me a doctor I feel confident about.

I pretty much call and ask my mother everything.. as she has already gone through menopause. She keeps saying that with this shot being used as/in Chemo Therapy for prostate cancer, I can't really expect to feel good. I take her advice ..usually. I've asked her to get a blog and she hasn't even figured out how to get to mine more than one time. My dad has bought her a new computer and computer desk. She still hasn't become all that computer savvy yet. Someday, maybe..

Speaking of mothers (and my problems don't EVEN compare), I went and saw Kelly today. She is just wonderful. When I woke up Friday night (sat.morning) at 4am I went right to her blog. I had been on it until midnight when I went to bed. I just kept reading it over and over again. My heart hurt so bad for her. I just kept thinking how Harper had to pull through. I know how strong Kelly is but I couldn't imagine the pain she was going through. Sunday and today I woke up wanting to go to the hospital and just hug Kelly! I went today a little after lunch. I was nervous because I knew there was nothing I could say to help or comfort but she was just so glad to know I was praying for them. They were about to speak to the doctor. Kelly seemed in good spirits and she was so sweet. She said they were hoping Harper could try to start breathing a little on her own...which is great news! I was able to meet the family and give Kelly a hug and some cupcakes. It was good to see her smile. She updated her blog tonight and it seems Harper is improving a little all the time. Keep them in your prayers!

Kelly's husband & mom took our picture :) I think she called them paparazzi, haha. I'll get the big one from her later.


Kelly started a prayer blog for women wanting to find a husband and those trying to have a baby. Several weeks ago she added me to the baby prayer list. It means so much to me that she is able to bring so many people together to pray for one another whether going through fertility issues or not. The prayer blog can be found on her blog. There has been a great amount of success!

hugs & babies ~ megan